Depression Is Just The Pits...it sucks sorry for the slang

I am just about overwhelmed with depression on top of the other medical issues I am daily dealing with. I just hate it. I have felt this way before in my life and it has not been easy to get through but I will. I must....there is too much to live for to give up. I need to get some better sleep and that would help. I am just venting here to myself and hoping someday soon down the road I will look back and read this and say .....Thank GOD I am out of that pit. I thought when I started the Synthroid that it would be an answer to some of this for me...anxiety and depression...but it wasn't or hasn't been yet. I also had to start taking blood pressure medicine and medicine to slow my heart rate down. I do not adjust to new meds very well and it has not gone easy. Why is it that some people can just swallow a pill and head on down the road of life and I on the other hand never have it that easy? Well Peggy ....dig in ....hang on....pray for guidance and remember God will never leave you or forsake you....God did not give me a spirit of fear but one of power love and a SOUND mind. Sound Mind...thank you GOD