Sunday, June 19, 2011

Depression Is Just The sucks sorry for the slang

I am just about overwhelmed with depression on top of the other medical issues I am daily dealing with. I just hate it. I have felt this way before in my life and it has not been easy to get through but I will. I must....there is too much to live for to give up. I need to get some better sleep and that would help. I am just venting here to myself and hoping someday soon down the road I will look back and read this and say .....Thank GOD I am out of that pit. I thought when I started the Synthroid that it would be an answer to some of this for me...anxiety and depression...but it wasn't or hasn't been yet. I also had to start taking blood pressure medicine and medicine to slow my heart rate down. I do not adjust to new meds very well and it has not gone easy. Why is it that some people can just swallow a pill and head on down the road of life and I on the other hand never have it that easy? Well Peggy ....dig in ....hang on....pray for guidance and remember God will never leave you or forsake you....God did not give me a spirit of fear but one of power love and a SOUND mind. Sound Mind...thank you GOD

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I Have been Gone toooooo Long

I have totally had a CFS relapse and some other health problems to deal with and have neglected my blog for too long. I just thought I would come on here and say I am alive and kicking just not kicking too much!! Life has been rough lately. My Mom went back to her own home on Memorial Day as I am not able to look after her at this time. My older brother is spending nights with her and my other brother's wife looks in on her in the daytime. I feel terrible about not helping with her at this time but I have got to try to somewhat gain back my own health. Do not ever....I say ever .....let any medical professional take you straight off your anti depressant without tapering you down.....even if it is supposed to be for your heart health. I am digging my way out of a big dark hole that was created by this and hope to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Back in the late 90's when I was put on Nortriptyline they did not know it could interfere with cardiac health and by the time I knew ....wham.....I was there having rhythm and bp problems. So am now still sorting those out along with that thyroid problem and praying to find another antidepressant I can tolerate that will help with depression anxiety and pain and I don't tolerate changing meds well. People with CFS are really sensitive.....anyway that is my speel for now. Hope to start catching up with some of you all in the next few husband has put a plug behind the couch and now I can plug in my laptop as my battery in it needs replaced.